This morning, I awakened feeling good, happily went about my morning preparations, and headed out the door to my appointment. I threw a bag into the trash can on my way, and before I got to my truck, my body was physically knocked down. I immediately looked up at the sky...
I have been knocked down like this before. That day, I looked up to see a wide geoengineering spray trail (commonly referred to as "chemtrails") directly above my head, quite low to the ground, actually.
(For those who are unfamiliar with geoengineering, I explain in this video.)
I recently spoke with someone who had a very close friend die one day due to chemtrail spray. She had been eating healthfully, living simply in the "clean air" in high altitudes of the southwest United States, in a well-built earth-friendly home, feeling good. Until one day when she collapsed suddenly, was rushed to the hospital, and was unable to be saved. There was nothing to blame except the chemtrail that had been sprayed overhead shortly before she collapsed.
In light of the gross difference between how I felt inside our RV this morning, and how I felt outside (in what should have been wonderful island air, so close to the beach!), should I not be looking around to discover the cause?
I spent the drive to my appointment, amazed and horrified at the intensity of the geoengineering "fake cloud" cover and spray trails. In flat Florida, I see so much sky as I drive. I cannot NOT see them.
Earlier this week, I was happily going about my business inside our RV (that has an air cleaning machine and essential oil diffuser running constantly), then, upon going outside and driving to do errands, found my brain having trouble functioning, taking two consecutive wrong turns on roads I knew, for no reason at all. It did not make sense....except for the fact that there was also horrendous geoengineering coverage visible in the sky that day.
It's Not Just Me...
Why is it that people feel so good on clear, sunny days? Could it have to do with the fact that there is not this intense saturation of mind- and mood-altering toxic substances being poured out on us in the air we are breathing?
If it were only me, maybe it would just be my mind playing tricks on me. Why is there a facebook group of 50,000 members who are passionately fighting for this spraying to stop? Why do so many of the older generation testify that clouds never used to look like this?
Why are there so many stories of people whose minds and health have been negatively affected in direct relation to seeing spray trails overhead?
Why are there so many websites dedicated to educating people about the dangers of geoengineering aka chemtrails? Why are even people in positions of power, and "whistleblowers" testifying to the facts around the dangers and reality of geoengineering?
Conspiracy Theory? Really?
Am I a fanatical conspiracy theorist to be concerned about something that I believe took me from feeling fairly healthy and active, to so sick that I was dependent on a caregiver, could barely walk, unable to digest most foods, personality totally (negatively) altered, and memory and brain not working?
I mean, how can I explain getting so sick while "doing everything right", including spending my days and nights in "fresh" beach air? Could it be because that fresh beach air was not so fresh? Especially in light of how quickly I recovered my health by moving into REAL fresh air?
And why did I come up with this strange illness referred to as Morgellons, with fibers coming out of my skin, the same fibers that have been found in "chemtrails"? Why am I not the only one who has had this experience?
Why do those with Morgellons feel worse after it rains? Could it be because the toxins in the air come down more heavily?
Why are there so many Facebook groups, websites, and YouTube videos being made by people with this strange condition? And stranger yet, why has the government been calling this a delusional disorder (yet the fibers coming out of people have been examined under microscope repeatedly, and are obviously not a delusion)?
Who Can I Trust?
Why would I trust a power structure that is calling those who talk about "chemtrails" conspiracy theorists and calling me delusional for noting the fibers coming out of my skin, the fact that my hair moves on its own, even days and weeks after coming out of my head, and my body's sudden weakness and brain malfunction when I walk out into air that has obvious trails overhead, back and forth and back and forth, covering the sky, that are not from ordinary plane traffic, and are definitely not clouds?
Why do people tell me:
- You are obsessing about conspiracy theories.
- Obviously there is no benefit to spraying the entire population with something that will make unproductive workers.
- Our government has our best in mind; that's why this country was founded!
Why Don't You Shut Up Already, Tasha?
Why would I keep talking about this, instead of thinking happier thoughts? Could it be because my health is being affected every time I walk outside; every social event, every errand I run, every time I want to go for a bike ride, try to exercise, or play in the "fresh air" on the beach?
Could it be because I care about people, I long for justice, I desire that we treat others how we would want to be treated, I want to know the truth, and I want this for others too?
Could it be because it angers me to see friends and family getting cancers and digestive issues and memory problems, and they have NO IDEA that it could be related to the "fresh air" they are trying to expose themselves to? (Did I mention that all of these things appeared for me during the time I was living, around-the-clock, in that "fresh air", in the space of a few months?)
Informed Consent...Or Not...
I understand that we can have consequences for poor lifestyle choices, failing to exercise, eating junk food, living full of resentment, etc. But those are things we have a choice about; we are consciously and in full knowledge choosing to sacrifice our long-term health for short-term pleasure.
But not so with geoengineering. The spraying is made to look like "clouds". The public is not being informed nor given a choice in the matter. It is deceptive; it is toxic; it is evil. Such irony that a person, making a healthy choice to spend time outdoors, is getting exactly the opposite of what they "know" to be the result! Instead of getting healthier, they are getting POISONED!
I cannot, and will not, stay silent about this.
Why Raise Awareness if it Won't Change Anything?
But what is the point of sharing about this? If this is as big as it seems (yes, geoengineering is happening world-wide), and government is not only not looking out for the best interests of its citizens, but actually...as "whistleblowers" testify (with hard evidence and facts)...DOING it...then it doesn't look like my puny voice (nor the thousands of people on the internet) speaking up against it is going to make it stop.
So why speak up at all?
Because it matters. Because TRUTH matters. Because knowing the facts can help people make educated decisions. Maybe hearing from me will spur people to get air cleaners, to do more work to detoxify their bodies, to be very thoughtful about the amount of time spent outside, possibly take protective measures like wearing a wet mask.
Maybe my sharing will help people question who and what they are believing and trusting. Maybe it will help them look to God as their Provider and Authority, rather than to leaders or governments that, contrary to what we'd prefer to believe, may not actually have our best interests in mind.
Who knows? But the fact of the matter is...
If they don't know the truth, they can't act upon the truth.
I am reminded of some Biblical passages...
Jesus Christ, at the trial before His crucifixion, said, "For this I have been born, and for this I have come into the world, to testify to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth hears My voice." (John 18:37)
To which the Roman governor, Pontius Pilate, replied: "What is truth?" and turned and left.
What is truth???
I actually believe that truth is super-important!
Part of my personal history is growing up believing certain lies. These lies affected my thinking, my choices, the person I was becoming. This isn't just me. Humans in general all have "a past" that shapes who we become, our reactions, the way we treat others.
Beliefs shape thoughts; thoughts shape actions; actions shape US.
One example of a lie I believed: that God was keeping me from pleasure. This made me resentful at God. It made me seek out empty thrills. It led me on a path of destruction; an eating disorder that destroyed everything good in my life.
That belief has now been exposed for the lie it is. In coming to understand the truth, that GOD IS FOR ME, His ways and thoughts are higher than mine (I can't understand them), His way is GOOD, my life and thinking have changed. I believe and act upon TRUTH, and boy, is God's way GOOD!
The First Big Lie...
Do you remember the first act of "sin" / "evil" in the world?
Adam and Eve. In a beautiful, luscious garden, full of amazing natural beauty and delicious plant food. Everything theirs for the taking. One tree reserved for God, but the rest...endless bountiful blessings.
And the serpent twisted God's truth, deceived Eve. She fell for the same lie I had fallen for: that God was withholding pleasure and goodness from her...and she now just HAD to taste that "forbidden fruit".
Knowing What God Knows...
It's interesting to note what that tree held. It was the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. The serpent tempted Eve, saying she would be like God if she ate that fruit!
(The thing is, we are created in God's image, so telling her we would be like God was kind of silly. I mean, we are already "like God".)
I believe the serpent was implying that we would have the power and understanding of God.
(It's kind of interesting if you think about it. Satan got kicked out of Heaven because he was so "full of himself". Sounds like he wanted to steal the show from God. Then, when he got the boot... Well, misery loves company! What better than to get these humans to fall for the same lie?)
What We Know CAN Hurt Us.
But I believe keeping us from the knowledge of good and evil was a protection that God was giving us.
The more I learn about the evil in this world, the more I realize I cannot "carry" it.
The more I see the complexity of the systems that are waging war against human health and life (vaccines, GMOs, nanotechnology, geoengineering...and on and on and on), the more I realize I don't know diddly, this stuff is evil and depressing, and the weight of even a part of it is simply unbearable!
The Knowledge of Evil...
I am learning about, among other horrors, CERN (a lab in Switzerland) harnessing ancient (evil) "hidden" technology to do VERY bad things. (I'll let you search that one out on your own.)
Humans are using the "knowledge of good and evil" to commit horrific acts against humanity, all of creation, and against God himself.
An example of using knowledge for evil:
Those who commit ritual abuse against children know that if the abuse begins before the age of 7, a child's mind will "split". This is a God-given protective response to trauma (conflict of "Daddy loves me" and "Daddy is raping me".) The split off personality is a way for the child to survive.
Those who are ritualistically abused are groomed for criminal work, because one personality can do the crime, and the other personalities will not remember a thing, and can honestly plead innocent.
Hitler's Methods Are Not Dead.
Psychological knowledge: Remember how Hitler used some knowledge of psychology to do some very evil stuff? His methods are still being employed. There are decades of documented mind control experiments.
Medical knowledge: Those with knowledge of the inner workings of the body are tampering with our God-given immune function through vaccinations and GMOs.
Environmental knowledge: Experts in weather factors, physics, and environment are "climate engineering" our weather, resulting in super-storms, earthquakes, and unheard-of weather catastrophes, causing mass destruction and loss of life.
Technology knowledge: Sure, technology has made life and social networking pretty convenient. But we all know that Google and Facebook keep/know EVERYTHING. Our privacy has been stolen, our cell phones operate as tracking devices (well they also cause cancer and make us infertile, but that's another story), and...there's a much bigger behind-the-scenes "ugly" picture that I won't go into.
And these are just tiny pieces of the whole.
"Hear No Evil, See No Evil" / "I'm Not Listening!!!"
So what is the answer? To avoid mis-using knowledge, should we shut off our brains and decide to stop learning? Of course not.
For better or for worse, the can of worms has been opened...all the way back in the Garden of Eden. Humans have been exposed to the knowledge of good and evil.
Now we have a choice about what to do with it.
Wise, Yet Innocent.
When praying about this whole thing, some Bible verses came to mind:
“Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves." (Matthew 10:16)
(So, don't be stupid or uninformed. But don't get caught up in it.)
Like a Little Child...
"Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, 'I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.'" (Matthew 18:2-4)
(I think, ever since opening that can of worms, we humans have this desire to know, understand, grasp it all! I think, like Satan (Lucifer), when he got kicked out of Heaven for his pride and ego, we can get lost in trying to "grasp" it all...to figure it all out, to try to be God...that "ego" thing.
This passage seems to call us back to humility. To trusting God to be God. To leave understanding how the sun rises and sets, to God (like in the book of Job). To rejoice that God's "got it". To relax in our Daddy's arms and enjoy the blessings He continues to pour out: yummy fruit, fun with friends, music, dancing, and silliness.
Getting caught up in all the monstrosities against humanity steals our joy and our ability to be of service to others. Our health is affected by taking on what we are not designed to carry. That is our Father's job...the One who truly IS God. Releasing the weight to His arms frees us to live in His peace as we walk through the darkness, our paths lit by His radiance.)
What We Know Affects Our Well-Being.
Remember the prophet Jeremiah? He was called the "weeping prophet". God had given him a message, an unpopular message, and he preached for 40 years without seeing results. He didn't have much human support to help him with this task either. He cried for the fate of his people, but I suppose he must have cried also, from this burden he was carrying!
It has been suggested to me that I stop learning about all these crimes against humanity, because even if it is true, my knowing about it won't change what is happening. I am weakened by dwelling upon it, and it is not good for me.
The Weeping Prophet!
So what about Jeremiah? He definitely was affected by this knowledge he had. But God trusted him to carry it anyway. It was the role he had given Jeremiah on this earth.
Surely, it makes sense to protect my health, to set boundaries. But I do not believe God is calling me to live in a protected bubble. He is calling His children to be a city on a hill, not a light hidden under a basket.
He gives His children what they need for the tasks He gives them to face.
Balance Comes from God.
I cannot pretend to be perfect at this balance. Knowledge and humility. Wisdom and innocence. Boldness and grace. Action and rest. Jesus was perfect. I need God's help big-time, as I tend to be a person of extremes. hahaha
(But the Bible is filled with examples of people that God used, despite their weaknesses and failures...woohoo!)
I think the main thing is, God has given the gift of His Spirit to live in the hearts of His children. He lets us know when we've gone too far, when we need to "let go" of things that we aren't supposed to carry, when to speak up, and when to keep our mouths shut.
Should We Stop Learning?
The research I do helps me to find solutions, has helped me find explanations, find ways to help my body heal.
Listening to others and helping them on their journey...well, as the Bible says, those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed.
I may take on extra baggage at times, my emotions may swing to and fro as I deal with conflicts and conundrums, but...these, too, are opportunities to grow. God helps me with the baggage, gently reminds me that He is the lifter of my burdens.
For such a time as this, I was placed upon the earth...
God has led me to this place, prepared my spirit and my body, given me a message, courage, and conviction...for such a time as this.
I am a broken vessel...but He knows that full well.
And He has brought me here and chosen me as His child and servant anyway. He already knows what I will face, and He has promised to walk beside me through it, each step of the way.
He has been faithful, and I trust Him completely to follow through.
Should I shut up, close my eyes, and pretend the world is wonderful?
Well, sure, if God says to.
But He hasn't.
He's the Lion of Judah. And I'm his daughter.
I am a lioness-in-training.