1) I procrastinate on making my carrot juices (because there are more fun things I'd rather be doing) until it gets kind of late in the day. Then, because there is no way I want to go through the hassle of juicing any more days than necessary, I just stay up until the job is finished...sometimes way past my bedtime.
2) I have some minor task that I've promised my hubby I'll get done before going to bed, such as cleaning dishes. But because it has gotten late and I'm feeling tired, the task seems overwhelming.
So I procrastinate with "easy" computer stuff. Unfortunately, the later it gets, the more tired I get...and the more overwhelming the job seems. So...I keep finding more things I need to do on the computer instead. :) Finally, when I can procrastinate no more, I get the job done, but it again means getting to bed quite late.
3) I'm feeling toxic (not that great) on a certain day due to extra "exposures" or pathogen die-off toxins building up in my system (aka "herx"). Because I am feeling crappy and tired, I skip my enemas and just go to bed.
This results in feeling extra-crappy the following day. (Moral of the story: "crappy" days are when detox tools like coffee enemas are most needed; worst day to skip! Do it anyway!)
4) I'm working on a fun project that excites and inspires me. Often it is a video or writing project. I am so motivated to get it done and share it with the world, that I don't want to stop until it's complete. This results in working through the night, and yes, I even sometimes pull all-nighters....and I'm not a college student anymore!
So of course I feel crappy and weird in the following days. But I love the freedom to do this, because it makes me feel alive! So I accept the consequences, even though I know it is not helpful to my body's work of healing. Hey, I"m not perfect. ;)
Now that you know my patterns of weakness...I can tell you that last night was a scenario #4. I completed a really cool project and was extremely happy about it...but it also meant I didn't get a lot of sleep. So, today I paid the price...
11:30am-ish? Wake up to pee, feeling like it is the middle of the night. Turn on the computer and put the final touches on my project.
12:30pm - Is it really daytime? I want to go to sleep, but if I do, I'll sleep the rest of the day, and then won't be able to fall asleep tonight. Guess I'll stay awake. No way I want to go outside today and risk having to talk to someone. Glad it's raining. It's gonna be a slacker day...
Still 12:30pm-ish.... Feels like I should be doing something for health. Clean zapper, brush teeth. Guess I'll make a smoothie to get in my supplements now because I don't know how long I'll be awake...
5 banana, 1 liter coconut water, 3 tbsp juiced barley grass powder, 1 tbsp moringa, 3 tbsp SunWarrior raw vanilla protein powder. Take 1st handful of pills, sip on smoothie, check messages.
1:30pm - Try to finish a video editing project. Can't keep my eyes open. Alternate between messaging, non-productive attempts at work, napping, and watching those addicting Markus Rothkranz videos. hehe
4:30pm - Decide I better do my enemas before it gets too late. 2 water + apple cider vinegar enemas, then a coffee enema. About all I got done was listening to Bible and inspirational music, closed my eyes, and used the magnetic massager on my face.
5:30pm - Realize I'm out of coffee, and if I don't make it today, I'll be in the middle of my enema process tomorrow and remember that I forgot to make coffee. Wash enema stuff and dishes, and get coffee started. Hubby volunteers to finish the process. God bless him! :)
6pm - Realize I need to change my continuous glucose monitor, otherwise blood sugar stuff will be a pain. Get that taken care of.
6:15pm - Realize we are out of Thieves essential oil blend (didn't I just make it? Guess it wasn't a big enough recipe...) Get the mix prepared and bottle filled.
6:30pm - Realize I still need to drink my carrot juice for the day. Start in on the juices, about one every 45 minutes. Take my 2nd, 3rd, and 4th set of pills respectively.
7pm - Decide maybe I should blog about my slacker day before going to bed. I need to get my carrot juices in anyway, and also it will take a few hours before my continuous glucose monitor (CGM) is ready for calibration.
So here we are, 8:45pm, and pretty soon my CGM will be ready for calibration. Guess I'll post my food for the day on my accountability group, do the calibration, then brush teeth/clean zapper/use magnetic massager, and drift off to sleep somewhere between 9 and 10pm. Then...I'll sleep 'til I wake up. :)
I'm actually kind of proud of myself for still getting in all my pills today! :) There are many days where I forget, and get maybe 1 or 2 sets of pills in. Some days I forget to drink my carrot juice, forget various supplements, skip my enemas, etc.
And guess what? It's okay. I am still making progress forward. At the very least, in addition to my naturally-cleansing fruit-based raw food diet, I am wearing my Terminator parasite zapper 24/7, and those two actions alone add up to way more than doing nothing! :)
Many people mention to me that the amount of supplements I use is overwhelming; the things I do in a day are overwhelming, etc.
I truly believe that if I felt I had to follow a strict protocol, I would have fallen off long ago. But for me, my "protocol" is listening to my body, asking God what step to take next, and finding a way to make life happy and fun in the midst of my current part- to full-time job of parasite cleansing.
I really do enjoy the process now! I enjoy my relaxation time during enemas. I enjoy listening to inspiring music and radio programs while juicing. I enjoy being active. I enjoy the various foods I eat to nourish my body.
I don't necessarily always love the "getting there" parts, or the "this is an annoying interruption to what I would rather be doing" parts, but hey, nobody ALWAYS gets their way. And NOT getting my way is a growing experience! I am grateful for how I am growing through this process of cleansing and healing.
As you can see from my day today, even if I wanted to have a total slacker day and not do anything at all, I still chose to get some things done that will make tomorrow easier...because I've learned the hard way that it's probably the wisest choice to do so.
Some things I've learned that keep me uplifted as I move forward with the cleansing process on days like today:
1) It's about progress, not perfection.
2) Living in gratitude makes everything better. There is ALWAYS something (usually TONS of things!) for which to be grateful.
3) For several months, I could not even think or get off the couch, much less do ANY of the stuff I do now, even on "slacker" days. So today was an awesome improvement!
4) It's totally OKAY to rest and do stuff I find fun or non-productive sometimes. In fact, it is GOOD for me!
And, in the words of Bob Marley:
5) Don't worry about a thing...'cause every little thing's gonna be alright.
(I hope that song gets stuck in your head now!) :)